God is sooooo good, all the time, Thank You Lord Jesus :)

Yaampuuuunn ga kerasa uda setauuunnn ini blog ga diupdateee hahahahha dulu masi alay cara nulisnyaaaa ky skr gak aja*
Hwaaa jd aku cm mau cerita aja sihhh.. mau bagi berkat ceritanyaaa *backsound :You raise me up~~~~~* after a month of luntang lantung ga jelas galau gajelas takut sedih putus asa lemah letih lesu (?!)
Jadiiiii.. here I am... di taun ke *peepppp* haha taun ke 5 di universitas yg aku dulu doakan supaya aku bisa masuk dan menimba ilmu dsni.... Dan finally comes the time dimana orang-orang bilang ini adalh ujian terberat dalam hidup *lebaaY* haha kehidupan universitas maksudnya... haha yeappp you right.... masa2 dimana ada TA *jengjengjeng* TA atau tiada berakhir haha ga deng.. Tugas Akhir maksudnyaaaaa dan after that ada seminar.. dan sidanggg..... huwaaaaaaa
Dan ntah kenapa kehidupan per TA an aku dr awalnya emang uda penuh konflik dan tragedi sih.. mulai dari topik awal yang bingung... n then aku akhirnya ikut2an ajaaa... dan ternyata baru sadar kl minat aku bukan di topik ini,,, *ya walopun kynya di topik laen jg ga minat sih ahaha* tp ky lebi gampanng (kliatannya).. tapi ga deng, coz setiap TA ada keunikannya sendiri2... ada susah senengnya,, ada gampangnya,,, dllll..
iyaaa pkonya begituuuu lah kl dilist kynya bnyak banget hambatannya ato tantangannya lah bahasa halusnyaaa.... mulai dari telat mulainya, trus topiknya aku masi bingung, dan ketika akhirnya bisa seminar, pas mau sidang melakukan kesalahan odong yg berakibat FATALLLL BGTTTT ampe gabisa sidang pada akhirnya (tapi kl sidang jg maksaaaa bgt sih emang mepet dan gak siap), ampe dimurkain dosen, ngadep sambil nangis2, ngilang 2 bulan dr kampus, phobia kampus dan gedong fakultas, phobia skripsi *its lebayyy but its true, believe me* sampe akhirnya mengumpulkan keberanian buat ngadep dosen dan dapet nasihat dari seorang sahabat buat doain dosennya,, supaya dikasih kelembutan hati.. dan finally... IT WORKS!! MIRACLE DOES HAPPEN!!!!! Bener2 ga nyangka banget tadi pas ketemu dosennya, ibu nya baiiiiikkkk bttt, ramah bangetttttttt, bahkan bilang "kok kamu gendutan??" yaampun ampe berurai air mataaa td *gak di depan ibunya juga sih* bener2 Tuhan Yesus baik bangeeetttttt, apa yg aku kira ga mungkin jadi sangat mungkinn.. tapi tinggal 1 lagi nihh,, semoga ntar gaada revisian lagiiiii atopun kl ada ga banyak2.. soalnya jujur aja udah bosen bin mulek sih sebenernya haha dan agak ga ngerti juga ama penelitian sendiri @_@ *parah juga ya, tp bneran siiiih, it feels like "astaga gue tuh ngapain sih ini???! trus ini hasilnya beneraaaan ky gini??? "trus blablablaaaaa lainnyaaaa.. tapi intinya apapun yg terjadi nanti sore,, tetep percaya,,, bahwa Tuhan mereka2kannya untuk kebaikan :) Yup, ky the story of Yusuf, dia masih percaya bahwa semua yang dia alami itu sebenernya emang Tuhan ijinin buat mendatangkan kebaikaann (Kejadian 50:20)
aku sampe uda mikir, aduh apapun yg terjadi, kalopun gue ga diijinin sidang lagi, kalopun gue dicibirin orang2 gr2 ga lulus, kalopun gue harus lulus oktober, kalopun orang2 bakal ninggalin gue, even orang terdekat atopun bonyok gue... percayalah,, bahwa Tuhan gapernah ninggalin kita.. dan semua keadaan itu bkn end of the world kok, lulus telat enggak, it's just another phase of life :) sooo jangan takut, tp jgn berarti jd ga berusaha dan pasrah juga... aku pernah berada di fase pasrah dan berpikir apd aku ujung2nya bakal DO or another pikiran2 buruk lainnyaaa.. tapi ternyata semoga di DO nya dari Sabuga ajaaaa tgl 1 Agustus nantii *aminnn* kl aku lulus, itu karena kasih karunia. GRACE ALONE. kl ga lulus... (aduh jangan deh....) ttep percaya juga Tuhan baik dan punya rencana! tapi jangan dongg huhuhuu mau lulus aja amiiiiiiin..
Aduh cape juga ya ngetik segini panjangggg hahahha tdnya mau cerita dikit eh malah jadi panjang bangett hahaha.. yaudah intinya, bersyukur buat 1 doa yg dikabulin Tuhan, dan hopefully doa lainnya juga bakal dikabulin.. wisuda 1 Agustus nanti dr Sabuga... Aminn.. once again, thanks abudantlyyyy Lord Jesus, You Are Great!!!!!!

Happy Birthday

I'm sorry for yesterday. I've been so mean to you. Jahat banget ya gue kl dipikir2. And I was just realized it maybe just a moment before I wrote this. What have I done? Such an egoism. Anyway,, I don't know whether you read his or not, before this day is over, I just wanna say..

Happy birthday dear Edwin, semoga kamu semakin dewasa, semakin bertumbuh di dalam iman dan perbuatan in Jesus Christ, semakin sayang ortu, semakin ganteng haha, sukses TA, cepet lulus, cepet dapet kerjaan yg oke, cepet nikah *eh??!* yaa pokonya all the very best for you.. Smoga bisa lebih peka dan lebih perhatian hahahaha *sometimes you have to pay attention to detail pleasee :'(* lebih gentle ama cewe, (duh kok ini makin lama makin maunya gue aja ya hahha)

Well okay a birthday is a birthday, but yg lebih penting bukan perayaannya, tp gmana kita mengucap syukur buat waktu yg udah Tuhan tambahin dalem hidup kita n gimana kita ngejalanninnya.. I'm truly sorry for today, I don't know how to make it special for you.. dissapointed, hope, anger,  love.. smuanya ky campur jd 1 dan akhirnya itu jd ky bom waktu yg meledak..

Happy birthday dear, I still love you, and I hope we last forever..

Thank You

1 November 2013. Hari ini kita udah beniat mau ketemu, udah janjian sih, well not officially janjian, but, at least udah ada niatan mau ketemu. Yaaaa walopun pas malemnya aku rada pundung sih, abisnya kamu nyuruh bobo pdhal masi belom jelas besok gimana. kesanny ky aku uda ngacoooo bgt ngomongnya jd aku disuruh bobo aja. Okay dan setelah siangnya kita ketemu.. and something unexpected happens. Kamu marah cm gara2 (menurut kamu) aku ga antri. Well, mnurut ondapat aku ya  kl hal yg ky gtu ya gak ada aturannya hrs in line antrian properly, kl ada kesempatan di tempat yg lebih kosong knapa ga dilakuin aja?? Tp menurut kamu itu tipically Indo banget yg ga menghargai nilai2 yg unspoken yg harusnya tetep dipake. At first aku ngerasa bahwa aku gak salah, aku gak bisa nerima, masa gituan doang harus sebegitunya sih??? Kadang aku ngerasa kamu terlalu taat sama aturan. Tapi well yah aturan memang ada buat ditaati sih, tp kl ini kan gada aturan tertulisnyaaaaa, lagian gaada queue linenya jugaaaakk plisss deeh. Tp as always, ujung2nya, selalu kamu yg ngerasa bersalah karena udah terlalu keras ama aku. Tapi yaaa, emang aku juga ngerasa kalo aku mungkin emg rada udik kali ya.. Maaf yaa kamu punya cewe urakan, kampungan, udik ky aku :"(. Aku tuh plg ga tahan kalo liat kamu nangis, apalagi gara2 aku, bneran deeeh aku ga tahaaaan banget sebanget2nyaaa. Akuga enak dan bingung banget kl liat kamu nangis. Aku tuh td bukan diem gamau ngomong gara2 maraaah, bukaaan, tp emg karena aku bingung mau ngomong aaaa, aku takut omongan ato sikap aku urakan lagiii dan aku malah salah lagi ntar ujung2nya. Dan aku jg gamau  bersikap dimanis2in cm buat ngecover hati aku yg lg gak mood. aku paling gabissaaa. Maaff banget tp td aku cm butuh waktu buat ngeclearin suasana hati aku ajaa, That's it. Kalo kamu tanya aku masih sayang ama kamu ato nggak, jujur aku masih sayaaaaaaang banget sama kamu, walopun kadang ada kalanya rasa itu tertutupi oleh kabut kesebelan, dll. Aku berusaha selalu percaya kamu emang sayaaang banget ama aku juga dan kamu selalu berusaha  ngasih yg terbaik da jadi yg terbaik buat aku juga. Tapi maaf kl kdg ekspektasi aku kelebihan, maaf,,

Okay for now, kl kamu rindu akan masa2 awal kita jadian, aku jg bakal berusaha ngubah sifat aku, dan berusaha supaya kita balik lg k kondisi awal pas jadian, dmana kt gapernah berantem dan saling pengertian akan banyak hal.. Aku bakal berusaha.. tapi yg terpenting, thank you for never give up on me no matter what, jujur aku gapernah nemu cowo yang setia banget ky kamu. Kamu nerima aku apa adanya, dan aku bisa ngerasain kasih Tuhan lewat kamu, makasih Edwin. Sekali lagi maaf banget buat hari ini, aku bakal berusaha buat jaga sikap, dan gak ngulangin kejadian ky hari ini, aku bakal berusaha lebih peka.. As you said, whatever we have to face in the future, we've promised to face it together :)

thought you wanna know :p

My love language, thought you wanna know, taken from this http://www.5lovelanguages.com/assessments/love/


Interpreting and Using Your Profile Score: The highest score indicates your primary love language (the highest score is 12). It's not uncommon to have two high scores, although one language does have a slight edge for most people. That just means two languages are important to you. The lower scores indicate those languages you seldom use to communicate love and which probably don't affect you very much on an emotional level.


Love Language Scores:
3 Words of Affirmation
10 Quality Time
5 Receiving Gifts
6 Acts of Service
6 Physical Touch




Quality Time
In Quality Time, nothing says "I love you" like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there—with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby—makes you feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed activities, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful.


Well.. It's sooooo much true, hahaha, and I thought it's just not only for parents and their teenagers child, coz I once had this experience tooo with my boyfriend, haha :p

nothing's gonna change my love for you

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of, I’ll never ask for more than your love

Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing’s gonna change my love for you


Nothing's gonna change my love for you, Edwin. I love you :)

list lagu buat wedding gyahahahaha :p

aaa rasanya udah lamaaaaaa bots ga ngeblogging *ya emang lama sih* dan berhubung akhir2 ini rasanya lagi musim nikahan, gw rasanya jd pengen nulis sesuatu yang berhubungan dengan topik tersebut :p buset dah bner2 taun ini (ato bulan ini yah), eh ga juga sih soalnya dipikir2 ga bulan ini juga sihhh tp taun ini nampaknya lebih tepatnya.. let's direkap, hmm juni-juli kmaren, 2 org kknya tmen gw merits, trus oktober kmaren another kknya tmen gw merit jg, dan november kmaren, 2 orang spupu gw ikutan merits juga.. dan bahkan saat di bridalnya spupu gw juga itu at least ada 10 penganten yg terdaftar d bridal lg mau dirias ckckck.. jd intinya, gw kapan?????!! hahahaha.. gaa, intinya brhubung di 2 nikahan spupu gw gw jd bridesmaid, jd gw kan ngikut2 mulu tuh kmana2 pnganten pergi, jadiiiiiii at least gw ada bayangan kl wedding gw ntar pengennya gimana2 (semacam dapet referensi) wkwkwk..

nahh, somehow gw jd terinspirasi buat ngelist lagu2 apa ajaaaa yg ntar garus ada di resepsi wedding gw.. haha.. (intinya sih ini lagu2 fav gw aja sih yang temanya pas buat wedding wkwkwk :p) ok so here's the list:

1. billy joel - just the way you are
2. barbara streisand - i finally found someone
3. boys 2 men - the colour of love
4. olivia ong - sometimes when we touch
5. westlife - nothing's gonna change my love for you
6. afgan - terimakasih cinta
7. shania twain - from this moment (aaaaaa kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)
8. jacky cheung - in love with you
9. bcl feat christian bautista - tetaplah di hatiku
10. canon in d (aaaaa ini gw pengen dimaenin buat ntar pas pemberkatan d greja, pas bridenya masup alias jalan memasuki gereja.. hehehehe)
11. christian bautista - miracle
12. when i fall in love
13. westlife - i wanna grow old with you
14. christian bautista - the way you look at me
15. christian bautista - since i found you
16. celine dion - the prayer
17. MLTR - I'm gonna be around
18. celine dion - i'm your angel
19. lauren wood - fallen
20. boyzone - i love the way you love me
21. mariah carey - thank God I found you
22. shania twain - you're still the one
23. steve green - household of faith
24. barbie hsu - rang wo ai ni
25. lao su ai da mi
26. vicky zhao - hao xiang hao xiang
27. vicky zhao - romance in the rain
28. chayanne - yo te amo
29. mymp - especially for you
30. boyzone - everyday i love you
31. daniel sahuleka - you make my world so colorful
32. jose mari chan - first romance
33. sixpence none the richer - kiss me
34. chicago - you're the inspiration
35. plain white t's - 1234
36. michael buble - everything
37. say a little prayer for you

okee.. sementara segini dulu.. hehe.. kayanya ntar resepsi jg gakkan selama itu juga nampaknya (itunglah 1 lagu kurang lebih durasinya 3-5 minits) wkwkkwkwkw.. ntar kl ada lagu baru yg kyaaaakk lg gw update lagi deh, nampaknya si wedding singernya juga ntar harus dilobi dulu juga biar mau nyanyiin ni lagu2 wkwkwk (kan dy blom tentu tau juga).. hehehe.. semoga terinspirasi!!!!! :p

yeah it's true :p

When a Girl is quiet … millions of things are running in her mind.

When a Girl is not arguing … she is thinking deeply.

When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions … she is wondering
how long you will be around.

When a Girl answers ‘ I’m fine ‘ after a few seconds … she is not at all fine.

When a Girl stares at you … she is wondering why you are lying.

When a Girl lays on your chest … she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a Girl wants to see you everyday… she wants to be pampered.

When a Girl says ‘ I love you ‘ … she means it.

When a Girl says ‘ I miss you ‘ … no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person….

Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who .. kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ‘That’s her!! ‘